"Be Brave!"

Pope Francis' words here are quite encouraging if you ask me, though rarely (if ever) an easy task! We all, like Christ crucified, thirst. But what does this thirst mean? From where does it come and precisely how does it yearn to be satisfied?

Deep in my soul, I don't thirst for power, prestige, possessions, or pleasure. Instead I thirst for the fulfillment I was designed to experience. Like a flower reaching up into the sunlight, I yearn to embrace the unreachable source of my nourishment and my very life.

However, that source is only unreachable when I insist on reaching it on my own. When my relationship with God can only grow on my own terms it can never grow at all. The truth is that the mere fact of my existence is sheer grace. I had nothing whatsoever to do with my own creation. I didn't deserve it. I didn't earn it. I had no claim on life at all, and yet here I am.

The Great Mystery who breathes life into me at each present moment calls me to eternal glory in his arms, but the road I must choose to follow for that thirst to be authentically quenched is a long and dangerous one, full of pitfalls and potential setbacks. The wonderful truth is that every single obstacle I will ever encounter was known to God before all ages. I need never fear, "for You are with me" (Psalm 23). I need to trust him, to trust his will, his plan, his timeline.

Oftentimes, I don't even need external obstacles - I am my own worst enemy. As Saint John of the Cross observed, "in becoming aware of their own imperfections, some people grow angry with themselves in an unhumble impatience. So impatient are they about these imperfections that they would want to become saints in a day" (The Dark Night of the Soul, Ch. 5:3). God instead calls me to recognize my weaknesses while striving for a more steady growth in virtue. Virtue grows just like anything else - one day at a time.

Do you wish then to be a generous person? Then think, say, and do generous things. Do you desire to be pure? Let your mind, speech, and actions demonstrate a consistent choice for purity. Do you seek to be a person of great love? Then think loving thoughts, say loving things, and show love through action in the lives of others, especially those who it is not easy to love and those who have no one to love them. This cannot happen without sacrifice, without genuine death to self and self-interest. I cannot happen without the virtue of courage. And so we conclude with the Holy Father's words once more: "Ask Jesus what he wants from you: and BE BRAVE!" Amen.

Enough's Enough.

It never ceases to amaze me just how elusive gratefulness tends to be - is it just me? Just look around us in a typical day and you'll see what I mean:

     - I got a good grade... but it wasn't good enough.
     - I make a few extra bucks helping a neighbor move... but it's not enough cash.
     - Gas prices come down... but not enough.
     - My apartment rent is pretty cheap for a place this size... but not cheap enough.
     - My day went pretty well... but not well enough.

When is "enough" enough? What can I possibly be looking for in this world if nothing in it ever satisfies me? And that's the whole point. I'm not ultimately looking for something in this world to satisfy me, to bring my life meaning and ultimate fulfillment. I am, after all, a soujourner, a wanderer, a passing visitor on his way to that heavenly home for which I serve as an ambassador in this world.

"Do not lay up for yourselves treasure on earth, where moth and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasure in heaven where neither moth nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there will be your heart also."   (Matthew 6:19-21)